The Wild Horse tamed at the altar of its Owner
There are some souls –
Even with their conditioned goals –
who carry an ocean inside them.
Not a ripple, not a wave –
but a raging, relentless, reverent rush
of longing, love, grief, grace,
fire, fear, and unbearable gush!
And this ocean cannot be tamed!
For not knowing this, you yourself are to be blamed!
The world calls it emotional dysregulation.
For which therapists have various contraptions;
Coaches offer “management” techniques
Corporate EQ modules to us speak:
Measure feelings. Speak less. Control more.
As though the cauldron of our spirit,
were some faulty plumbing,
whose channels need to be sealed or cut!
If true, then the Original Plumber is the only Fixer!
But hear me out, O soul:
You were never meant to dam this river!
Your emotions were not born in the brains.
They were embedded in the soul –
A miniscule reflection of the Divine Rains,
stirred by the memory of a True Love’s goal,
older than Time itself!
What the world calls “intense,”
the scriptural secrets say are
the symptoms of the Original Lives,
that make us ALIVE!
What the world calls “too much,”
and not meant to be touched,
the Gita calls it “devotion misplaced“
For emotions – when cut off from Source –
degenerate into attachment, obsession,
lust, greed, shame, or rage out of its course!
But when offered at the altar of devotion?
When allowed to return, full oblation,
to the One who set them ablaze?
Through His Causeless Mercy and Grace
They bloom!
They mature!
They purify!
They thrive!
Because oil and water never mix,
As never do material techniques
with the spiritual matrix;
You cannot tame the wild horse
with a leash made of logic, born of the corse!
We must let the river run,
not away,
but toward the Divine ground
where it was once upon a time, free,
and totally safe and sound!
Regulation?
No, my dear,
Not with Him!
Not when you are as you should be!
For you, dear soul, it must be in growth
And Emotional Maturing.
Don’t beat yourself, don’t loathe
but the love is in the transmuting!!
By pouring what is spiritual part
back into The Spiritual Whole!
Let your love burn
Let your grief weep
Let your joy tremble
Let your heart break open a hundred times,
until it becomes an offering plate –
on which you place all that is uncontainable,
for the One who is unchanging
That He may drink the essence of it all
With the Tulsi of your devotion!
And know that if you can trust Anyone to stand still and with integrity,
through your tantrums, your insecurity, disloyalty, volatility, irregularity,
without flinching is His support or sustenance
It is Him and only Him!!!
Invest all your energies and Emotions in Him – ‘cos they belong to Him!
For you’d have built something lasting permanently than all of them!
Only then –
will you know peace and devotion
Not because you managed your emotions!
But because you returned them Home!
And you’ll never be alone!
Lovingly offered to His Divine Grace AC Bhaktivedanta Swami Srila Prabhupada for invoking and kindling the spark of love of Godhead in me. And in every devotee/aspiring devotee in this World, like ONLY he can do!
REAL FREEDOM! 